January 28, 2019

Aloysius, 你留下了男神的榜样

I don’t know Aloysius but being in Singaporean 🇸🇬 & loving my country, I read all his news. As all his eulogies started pouring in, I was compelled to tears hearing about his angelic ways which totally match his angelic handsome face. Most people will lament what a waste to die like that & so young. We are all but fleeting light that will go out in our time. He left everyone in a daze, cos no one ever would see this coming. I believe he himself wouldn’t see his accident coming that his time on earth came to an abrupt halt. Many would say what a waste for working so hard & thinking so much & being so intelligent, what’s the point since U just gonna die & leave the world. 
But if U look at life as temporal process, and that he has treated everyone, even an extra, production crew, elderly, even a stray hungry cat... he took time despite busy at his passion & craft with acting & creative works, to give love & be there as listening ear, long chats with people who he brings light to, whether the person needs it or not, he was just there sincerely as a friend. With no agenda to be good or kind to u. I felt so touched. 
A rebellious kid who made his mum cry during puberty & charged for drink driving would grew up to be this super sensible & ultra sweet boy who would use his leftover money to buy aloe Vera gel for 7-8 elders who went on a trip for shooting, buy 8-10 mini hand fans for his co-actors during outdoor shoots, secretly escort his co actress to the toilet in foreign country, use 10% of his monthly salary to buy drinks & snacks for his production crew, treat the production crew b4 moving out of Caldecott hill. 
Where on earth do U find such a sweet charitable boy like him? 
Why nobody sing praises of him before? 
He deserves to know this. 
Yet he’s so humble & work harder than anyone & does his homework before filming! 
If a scene is not perfect, he asked to retake. 
Stayed back after his scenes are done to help pack up & clear the scene. 
He really went the extra mile to be kind to others. 


To say it’s a waste to lose an angel, 
Rather i see it as everyone on earth has a role & duty. 
His duty is to show others you can turn over a new leaf & shine brightly into others lives even if ur dark past wasn’t something u are proud of. 
His duty is to bring warmth & love to ur life when U never know if anyone cares. 
To lift U higher from the valleys if U have fallen. 
His endearing eyes are huge with sincerity. 
His smile is innocent & childlike 
His coolness doesn’t let others to worry for him. 
It’s not because he doesn’t need love, it’s because it’s easier to give love. 
He loves his job, he gives his all. 
Some people are put on earth with godlike ways to show us how to live like a better person, more like god. 
Some people like Aloy, who asks for nothing & expects nothing but want to joyfully give his all to this world while he was here.  
Instead of grieving, rejoice that U once met an angel or read about his moving story that he moves U to live a more godlike life. 
So much to learn from me, and I regret not knowing U more before this. 
But it’s never too late. 

We always still able to learn from the legends such as Bruce Lee & perhaps ur works will pass on for generations & generations. 



~ xoxo, MakeUpByGelainza Beauty Editor Live Your Dream

January 3, 2019

2018 Goodbye

Bade 2018 goodbye

Are U in a hurry to get over 2018?
Am i the only one who is feeling like quits?
Am i the only one who is feeling alone in this long fight?
Some of the things that we go through are not so visible.
But do u want to keep talking about it and keep digging at the wound?
Am I the only one who thinks God are U really there?
So many Emotional states
Or are you still in the pity party?

God brought U through this.
Everything in 2018 that made U afraid this year is not the devil.
Everything that broke your heart, made U cry, that u had lost,
things that didnt go according to plan is not the devil.

Things sent against u not to destroy u, that time when u felt like it will kill u,
when u stretch ur hand over what u went through
what u went through will deliver u what u came out from.
What it went through, but it didnt.
You thought, I could have lay down and die, lost my mind, but i didnt.
God wants to use what you go through, so is the devil.
Will U allow God to use what you went through?
Stop at this juncture, stretch out ur hand,
Its not meant to kill u.
No weapon formed against u shall prosper.
There are some things God had to kill, so it wont kill me.
God has to deal some of my enemies, in me.
Thats why I went through,
Thought I couldnt went through,
God did something inside you.
Look back now, what he had done to u.
God kept stuff away from u so that U can get through.
Before U are in a hurry to get through,
stretch and reach out.
"That all things work together for you."

Before you leave, you wont leave empty-handed.
We treat everything a form of learning, a blessing.
You dont come through like U went in.
U wanna come through overflowing with the glory of God.
U went through some things, that tried to take me out,
there are still things i need to deal with
It doesnt mean you were not disappointed
You can be disappointed and come thru dripping

U can be Samuel, the prophet that prayed for Saw, coached Saw, mentored Saw.
When God rejected Saw which the people have chosen,
Samuel was so hurt about it and wasn't sure if he wanted to go on
when he saw how little his investment unveiled
We had midnight
God says, I need u to stop mourning what I had already rejected
that I already made plans to replace in ur life
Here's ur instructions,
Fill ur horn with oil
and be on ur way
& when u get to jessie house, he gonna line up all his sons that he thinks to be in line for the next possible king
dont look at it like people look at it
dont look at who's the tallest, or who's the strongest
I need u to stop judging ur life by what u can see
Take that oil and take that joy & take that strength that U got left
and take those lessons that u learnt this year
and when i tell u he's the one, i want u to empty that oil on his head
Now David wasnt in the room when they start lining up sons, he was overlooked.
When God spoke, he went back to the sheep field dripping.
Its not what people do to u,
its not what people see in u
its not what people had said about u
if the oil of god is on ur life.
Im dripping from the inside.
God brought me through.
I got a power that is not of this world;
Tonight we flip the flow.
We gonna flip this.

Every rejection is to set u free.
The need to keep up the image
God wants u to depend on Him.
So that I wont be so independent & depend on Him.

--- From Official Elevation Church Youtube channel by Steven Furtick
I wanted to record this all down cos I felt I could relate to this at this point.



~ xoxo, MakeUpByGelainza
Beauty Editor
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